Bah Humbug?!?

I cannot seem to find the holiday spirit. Don’t misunderstand me, I am definitely enjoying the perks of the holidays but I don’t feel that special, internal buzz.

I’m certainly no Grinch, but I can’t help but think that perhaps my heart has grown 3 sizes too small. I always am anxiously anticipating the arrival of December! I drink Peppermint Mochas in November. I make lists, I save, I plan, I bake…I am always the spirit of Christmas incarnate. This year is just different. I believe that the problem with all of the above is that there is too much “I” and too much expectation. Right?

2009 has been a difficult year for everyone. I think everyone is feeling a little roll over and go to sleep (if you catch my drift) Stepping back for perspective, I have nothing to feel ungrateful or sadness about. Guess the end of the year has caused me to become reflective. Perhaps I am not “Little Miss Christmas” this year. Through all of this Christmas strife, I’ve found that most people struggle through the holidays—and for better reasons than not just “being in the mood.”